By Blue Go To PostFuck. This is going to be me in the following days/weeks isn’t it?It's fucked up, everything I am applying to seems to have 20-30% more applicants according to recruiters and HR people I've spoken to. So many qualified people without a job right now, it makes the competition a lot more difficult.
By FortuneFaded Go To PostJust had police at my apartment because I mentioned that I plan on killing myself in the future online. Fun times.What's up FF2?
Were you making a joke or were you serious?
Future could mean 40, 50 years.
Like I know for damn sure (at the moment) I won't die from anything I see coming. Fuck that noise. It's either going to sneak up on me or I'm tapping out before that motherfucker.
Like I know for damn sure (at the moment) I won't die from anything I see coming. Fuck that noise. It's either going to sneak up on me or I'm tapping out before that motherfucker.
By FootbalIFan Go To PostWhat's up FF2?I plan to check out once I’ve completed my phd. My only concern at the moment is what happens if I chicken out, since I don’t have the energy or motivation to go job hunting as a back up plan.
Were you making a joke or were you serious?
By FortuneFaded Go To PostI plan to check out once I’ve completed my phd. My only concern at the moment is what happens if I chicken out, since I don’t have the energy or motivation to go job hunting as a back up plan.Talk to us or me mate. What's making you feel this way? Is this a recent thought?
By FootbalIFan Go To PostIs this a recent thought?About 20 years
By FortuneFaded Go To PostAbout 20 yearsAre you on medication?
Hoping things change for you. I'd miss your posts ;(
You’ll have done the PHD big man. That’s money in the bank for a career in your field. Come back to the UK and teach with me. We’ll have a fucking whale of a time.
Or go into a Tory government workspace and get rich calculating yearly covid spreads across the wasteland formerly known as the UK.
By FortuneFaded Go To PostI plan to check out once I’ve completed my phd. My only concern at the moment is what happens if I chicken out, since I don’t have the energy or motivation to go job hunting as a back up plan.I know how it feels. At a point in my life I was actively pushing away people so I had no connections or reason to stay but luckily I got help before it was too late.
13 years have passed since then, my life is far from what I wanted but I have done so much and lived so much since then.
Seek help, talk to someone qualified, they can help you more than you imagine.
Make plans for yourself, set goals and try to achieve them but never think yourself as loser if you don't reach them, just make new ones.
I'm not going to say it's all going to be perfect, there will be days when those feelings will creep up, I still have thoughts that maybe I should just go but that is never never ever the answer.
We are here to hear you, can reach me when ever you want, PM, Twitter, WhatsApp, Instagram, where ever.
It gets difficult at times but don't give up, it's so worth it.
You are on your way to get your PHD, that's pretty damn impressive. You still have a lot to do with your life.
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
FF, don’t be afraid to call them. I know this is the second time you have mentioned about ending it after your PHD.
There are people here who are always willing to listen, and especially the people at that number.
You are a valued member of this forum and people here genuinely care about your well being. So again, please speak to someone whenever you feel the need to.
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
FF, don’t be afraid to call them. I know this is the second time you have mentioned about ending it after your PHD.
There are people here who are always willing to listen, and especially the people at that number.
You are a valued member of this forum and people here genuinely care about your well being. So again, please speak to someone whenever you feel the need to.
I’ve spoken with dozens of more qualified people over the last 14 years than the people who work on that phone-line. I’m not doing this based on some shortsighted emotional response. I’ve told my family my plans (they are the only people who realise that trying to hospitalise me won’t change my mind). I’ve took several medications against my will to no effect.
No amount of money would change anything. I’ve got several decades of miserable living ahead of me. I have no children, pets, partners, friends to leave behind. Logically, it makes no sense to continue.
No amount of money would change anything. I’ve got several decades of miserable living ahead of me. I have no children, pets, partners, friends to leave behind. Logically, it makes no sense to continue.
I think people deserve to end their lives on their own terms but that doesn’t make it any less upsetting. When are you finished with your PHD? I’d like to think we are your friends here.
Pets are bloody great. My girlfriend suffers from depression and she credits our cat for getting us through lockdown.
Hit to my ego but what do I expect with a belly like this
Hit to my ego but what do I expect with a belly like this
By FortuneFaded Go To PostI’ve spoken with dozens of more qualified people over the last 14 years than the people who work on that phone-line. I’m not doing this based on some shortsighted emotional response. I’ve told my family my plans (they are the only people who realise that trying to hospitalise me won’t change my mind). I’ve took several medications against my will to no effect.
No amount of money would change anything. I’ve got several decades of miserable living ahead of me. I have no children, pets, partners, friends to leave behind. Logically, it makes no sense to continue.
but... why are you feeling this way?
is it because of the lack of friends/people in your life?
is it something that can be fixed even though maybe you don't feel like going through the potential hassle to do so?
By Lunatic Go To PostI like dags as they kind of force you to get outside and enjoy the outdoors.
By Perfect Blue Go To PostIt's fucked up, everything I am applying to seems to have 20-30% more applicants according to recruiters and HR people I've spoken to. So many qualified people without a job right now, it makes the competition a lot more difficult.Been there before, Fortune. Keep ya head up. How you feel today is not how you will feel 10 years from now. Hope you pull through and find joy in your life.
And I just bombed a dream job interview right now. Has to be the worst interview I have ever given in my whole life. Like going 0-13 FG in game 7 of the NBA Finals bad.
By Blue Go To PostBeen there before, Fortune. Keep ya head up. How you feel today is not how you will feel 10 years from now.10 years ago I was in a psychiatric ward for the same thing.
By FortuneFaded Go To PostI’ve spoken with dozens of more qualified people over the last 14 years than the people who work on that phone-line. I’m not doing this based on some shortsighted emotional response. I’ve told my family my plans (they are the only people who realise that trying to hospitalise me won’t change my mind). I’ve took several medications against my will to no effect.I don't know you but you don't even believe this yourself. The only reason you've held on this long is because a part of you knows things will get better. Your PhD is useless in a grave, heaven or whatever other afterlife you may or may not believe in. We're all here to listen.
No amount of money would change anything. I’ve got several decades of miserable living ahead of me. I have no children, pets, partners, friends to leave behind. Logically, it makes no sense to continue.
FF, have you considered lifting heavy objects? I was in the same boat and obviously it's not an end-all be all but physical activity really takes the energy out of those thoughts. For me, at least.
By data Go To PostFF, have you considered lifting heavy objects? I was in the same boat and obviously it's not an end-all be all but physical activity really takes the energy out of those thoughts. For me, at least.Agreed lifting/running/cycling definitely is a major stress relief. Something about doing physical work really helps your mental state also can improve your physical appearance which in turn makes your self esteem sky rocket.
By Lunatic Go To PostAgreed lifting/running/cycling definitely is a major stress relief. Something about doing physical work really helps your mental state also can improve your physical appearance which in turn makes your self esteem sky rocket.Agreed. Especially running for me. Something about being dead tired after trying to hit a new PR on the mile run.
We will be replacing a software/hardware tech in my region soon. I got 4 resumes and one of them has multiple lines with "expert" and "advanced" listed next to different technical skills. I think it's a load of bs, especially since the guy has multiple jobs as his experience all lasting 1 months or 2 months, or 3 months at max. Like I know our industry has contract work, but such short tenure and you're telling me you're an EXPERT? I question that greatly.
Haven’t had to make a resume in a while but if I did, I’m an expert in everything like our former president.
By blackace Go To PostI do stuff like proctoring and implementing on my resume lolLMAOO YES!
listen I sent an email about it once okay
Reading resumes get me erect tbh. I wonder if I've read a million resumes as yet.
Def think people overthink them though
Def think people overthink them though
By Kidjr Go To PostReading resumes get me erect tbh.I think you are reading them wrong m8
By FortuneFaded Go To PostI think you are reading them wrong m8
Scantily clad women casually licking the tips of strawberries, you know. And then the gifs. How they get them animated on paper, I don't know.
By Kidjr Go To PostReading resumes get me erect tbh. I wonder if I've read a million resumes as yet.when tbh goes wrong
Def think people overthink them though
Erect metaphorically, the magical moment when you find the perfect candidate. I jump up for joy man. Its the same feeling I get when I beat father Gascoigne. So damn hard so much work but bloody satisfying.
By Kidjr Go To PostLmmmmaoooo hey buddy dms are open if you wanna unload at any point (excuse the pun)
