By jar155 Go To PostIs this the thread where I mention that I had a mental break, did something horribly dangerous, was deemed to be a physical threat to myself, and I'm now on two medications that are making me feel really weird? Is that this thread?
One cool thing that happened though…while I was doing that dumb thing, I had a friend that had some sort of sixth sense thing kick in and she had a panic attack and just "knew" something was happening and stopped it.
Anyway, I'm ok, guys. But…yo.
Yeah, this is the thread.
Glad you are talking about it and are doing well.
By jar155 Go To PostIs this the thread where I mention that I had a mental break, did something horribly dangerous, was deemed to be a physical threat to myself, and I'm now on two medications that are making me feel really weird? Is that this thread?whoa! Good that you are having external dialog about it!
One cool thing that happened though…while I was doing that dumb thing, I had a friend that had some sort of sixth sense thing kick in and she had a panic attack and just "knew" something was happening and stopped it.
Anyway, I'm ok, guys. But…yo.
Been through a lot of these events with loved ones in my life and they are not easy but a lot of good can come from them
By jar155 Go To PostIs this the thread where I mention that I had a mental break, did something horribly dangerous, was deemed to be a physical threat to myself, and I'm now on two medications that are making me feel really weird? Is that this thread?Mental health is a real thing that you need to make sure you take care of.
One cool thing that happened though…while I was doing that dumb thing, I had a friend that had some sort of sixth sense thing kick in and she had a panic attack and just "knew" something was happening and stopped it.
Anyway, I'm ok, guys. But…yo.
Glad you're ok, and you seem to have been finding time for your self lately with all the hiking, so hope it all settles in for you.
I didn't mean to make it sound as silly as I did. I really did pass through a few very dark months and insanely dark few recent weeks. I'm not out of it, but seeking help has been key to getting back onto a positive path. I've been EXTREMELY lucky to make a couple of new friends that have been able to pick up on some stuff going on with me and help me through some bad moments. My wife has been incredible.
A few nights before Thanksgiving, I left the house in the middle of the night, making sure nobody would notice. I took my phone and headphones. I walked to a local pond nearby. It was cold, probably right around freezing. My plan was to just listen to music and sit in the water until the cold did its thing and that was going to be it. Sitting there, getting real cold, I see a text message pop up. It's my friend, and it was just an all caps message, "WHERE ARE YOU WHAT IS HAPPENING?"
She was always asleep at this time. I didn't answer. Another text. "I can't breathe. Something is wrong. It's you."
I ignore it. She starts calling. I ignore the calls.
Another text. "I'm freezing cold and I feel you leaving, at least say goodbye if this is it."
She calls again and I answer. Somehow she knows. She talks me first out of the water. Then she talks me back home. Nobody else knows about this but her and later my psychiatrist, who my friend literally takes me to a few days later and sits in during the session. You guys and her know now, I guess.
It's been since last week now, and I'm on two drugs. I'm in a weird settling phase with them, but I'm trying. I've done the "I promise not to do X, Y or Z" promises to friends and family so that I can at least go to work and stuff without constant supervision. I don't have a desire to die right now. I feel like that was a singular and particularly bad moment. Well, one of very few bad moments. I'm looking forward though, and I'm accepting treatment. Here's to getting better.
A few nights before Thanksgiving, I left the house in the middle of the night, making sure nobody would notice. I took my phone and headphones. I walked to a local pond nearby. It was cold, probably right around freezing. My plan was to just listen to music and sit in the water until the cold did its thing and that was going to be it. Sitting there, getting real cold, I see a text message pop up. It's my friend, and it was just an all caps message, "WHERE ARE YOU WHAT IS HAPPENING?"
She was always asleep at this time. I didn't answer. Another text. "I can't breathe. Something is wrong. It's you."
I ignore it. She starts calling. I ignore the calls.
Another text. "I'm freezing cold and I feel you leaving, at least say goodbye if this is it."
She calls again and I answer. Somehow she knows. She talks me first out of the water. Then she talks me back home. Nobody else knows about this but her and later my psychiatrist, who my friend literally takes me to a few days later and sits in during the session. You guys and her know now, I guess.
It's been since last week now, and I'm on two drugs. I'm in a weird settling phase with them, but I'm trying. I've done the "I promise not to do X, Y or Z" promises to friends and family so that I can at least go to work and stuff without constant supervision. I don't have a desire to die right now. I feel like that was a singular and particularly bad moment. Well, one of very few bad moments. I'm looking forward though, and I'm accepting treatment. Here's to getting better.
just know i had dozens of ricky rubio jokes ready
dozens
but glad you're good and got good ppl around you too
dozens
but glad you're good and got good ppl around you too
Aint got words Jar155.
I know a few around here have been in some dark places themselves.
I can only tell you what words helped me, and they're said with sincerity, you'd be missed, you're a good guy, and if you need to talk shit out ever, people here are always happy to listen.
You seem to have a good group of people around you though.
I know a few around here have been in some dark places themselves.
I can only tell you what words helped me, and they're said with sincerity, you'd be missed, you're a good guy, and if you need to talk shit out ever, people here are always happy to listen.
You seem to have a good group of people around you though.
By domino Go To PostThat's crazy that she would just have that sense.i mean.................
glad you're ok jar
By jar155 Go To PostI didn't mean to make it sound as silly as I did. I really did pass through a few very dark months and insanely dark few recent weeks. I'm not out of it, but seeking help has been key to getting back onto a positive path. I've been EXTREMELY lucky to make a couple of new friends that have been able to pick up on some stuff going on with me and help me through some bad moments. My wife has been incredible.
A few nights before Thanksgiving, I left the house in the middle of the night, making sure nobody would notice. I took my phone and headphones. I walked to a local pond nearby. It was cold, probably right around freezing. My plan was to just listen to music and sit in the water until the cold did its thing and that was going to be it. Sitting there, getting real cold, I see a text message pop up. It's my friend, and it was just an all caps message, "WHERE ARE YOU WHAT IS HAPPENING?"
She was always asleep at this time. I didn't answer. Another text. "I can't breathe. Something is wrong. It's you."
I ignore it. She starts calling. I ignore the calls.
Another text. "I'm freezing cold and I feel you leaving, at least say goodbye if this is it."
She calls again and I answer. Somehow she knows. She talks me first out of the water. Then she talks me back home. Nobody else knows about this but her and later my psychiatrist, who my friend literally takes me to a few days later and sits in during the session. You guys and her know now, I guess.
It's been since last week now, and I'm on two drugs. I'm in a weird settling phase with them, but I'm trying. I've done the "I promise not to do X, Y or Z" promises to friends and family so that I can at least go to work and stuff without constant supervision. I don't have a desire to die right now. I feel like that was a singular and particularly bad moment. Well, one of very few bad moments. I'm looking forward though, and I'm accepting treatment. Here's to getting better.
Well damn.
Glad you got out of that and are talking to people about it. That's tough.
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By HasphatsAnts Go To Posty'all ever talk to someone hoping they'd give you calm and collected advice but all they do is stress you out more?That's generally my experience with all white people
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I would make a joke about my experience with black people but I don't spend much time around prisons.
By FortuneFaded Go To PostI would make a joke about my experience with black people but I don't spend much time around prisons.your mum is a prison
There's nothing more rewarding as a man than getting your dad a Christmas gift that is A) more expensive than what he got you and B) something he really needs
By data Go To PostThere's nothing more rewarding as a man than getting your dad a Christmas gift that is A) more expensive than what he got you and B) something he really needsAs a poor student it's a struggle. Even if I had enough money, it would be a pain in the ass to find something for my dad, since he doesn't really need anything.
By data Go To PostThere's nothing more rewarding as a man than getting your dad a Christmas gift that is A) more expensive than what he got you and B) something he really needs
i can't even think of anything my dad wants that'd be more than the $200 he gives me for Xmas. i got him a Bo Jackson Raiders jersey a few years ago even that was only like $160.
Last day of work today for 3 weeks. I'm feeling so burnt out right now, I really need to not see this code for a while
We get the 24th and 5th off and the 31st and 1st. So I'm taking the three days off in between and extending it to a 1.5 week vacation. Which will mostly be spent working on my remodel.
By data Go To PostThere's nothing more rewarding as a man than getting your dad a Christmas gift that is A) more expensive than what he got you and B) something he really needsTrust me. Last Christmas I got my Da (where the fuck is Cola?) a new 7.1 Yamaha AV receiver for his outside setup. Just 2 days before Christmas his old one broke. #winning
By Laboured Go To PostStill have to go in on Christmas Eve. Rubbish.Yeah, our office is open until then, but I hadn't been able to take all of my time off this year, so I had to blow them all now
Had 15+ days saved at my old job to be used from mid December until New year. Changed jobs in Sept. Lost that time (they cut the check tho). Now gotta accrue time off again, although you can borrow ahead if you want. GG.
I'm loosing 13 days, no fault but my own. Just havent been able to take extended time off this year. Also feeling really burnt out, really need to be a lot more though out with my holidays next year.
By DY_nasty Go To PostOpted to work Christmas and the eve yal tripping gimme the loot
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By Smokey Go To Postlook at chuCynthia and Rebecca don't believe in overtime I'm here everyday around the clock TV and radio like Stephen A
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Got forced to take the first two weeks of December for vacay because I had a crazy amount of time. Still have 4 days left for the year lol. Too much work to actually take it though and I can carry it over to next year anyways.
By blackace Go To Postforced to take time off? never meBy law we have to.
By Lunatic Go To PostBy law we have to.I mean I wouldn't be stocking my days off... lol