By DY_nasty Go To Postmom dying when i was 16 fucked me alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the way upYup. :(
One thing that helped me (that my dad's lady friend came up with during the wake), was to write my dad a letter to tell him everything I wanted to but couldn't now and then put it in his coat pocket to be buried with.
By Apollo Go To PostMy parent's were older when they had me. So my whole life I have seen my family die. Twelve kids in my dad's generation and now there's only three of them left. My sister's are around 15 years older than I am so the chance of them dying before me is higher. Especially with the two that were/are drug users and obese. My real sister (the other three are biologically my cousins but my parents adopted them) was born with only one kidney and other birth defects. She wasn't supposed to live this long and she's always sick.Oof.
Shit sucks
My great grandmother outlived all her children. All seven of them. Can you imagine burying all seven of your kids as a parent? I... I don't know if I would have the strength.
By Professor Beef Go To PostI'll never forget my friend's girl dying. She reached out to me since we were kinda cool when we were younger. She basically only reached out to me because I'm the only one in my group of friends who even bothers to shoot straight with people, and let me know that this friend was cheating on her while she was terminal. I've still got the Facebook messages. It was easy enough for me to believe because she was way too good for him (both in looks and personality) and it was clear since the moment I met him that he lucked his way through life.So much personal tragedy experienced in this thread.
As for my dad passing about a decade ago? I was mute for a week straight.
I remember being in denial for a week when I was told my dad died. Was trying to convince myself that I just misheard and it was one of my cousins that just died, instead. She had just started driving, after all, and that would make sense!
When my brain could no longer keep up that facade, I started thinking that everyone was just wrong and that he wasn't dead and was just hiding. Even after the funeral I thought this sometimes at night. For years afterwards, too. I would see someone that looked like him from behind at the store and get all excited that my dad's back only to see the person turn around and my hopes crushed.
I don't know when that delusion stopped happening but I'm so glad it did. It was a roller coaster of emotions of thinking he was alive and then realizing again that, no, that's not reality, he's actually dead; I saw and touched his dead body. Saw it go into a mausoleum in New Orleans.
Every time I talk about his death makes it easier and easier to process, I have found. It made me used to the idea that he's gone and accept it. It also makes me think about our time together, good and bad, and that always brings me a smile. The house I'm living in right now is the one he used to live in. He died next to the phone that used to be located roughly six feet away from where I'm typing this post right now.
By s y Go To PostMan working from home is fucking bossYup! Takes some discipline if you don't have daily/weekly goals given to you from someone else. Have to come up with them yourself.
While we on this tone, I really dont know how my wife does her job.
When we away, a baby had to be removed (at birth) from the mother who was 13 who also needs to be removed from her parents because she was raped by her best friends dad and its the second time she's been raped. Dad is on trial and it seems it was only the daughters friend and not the daughter (although not the only case).
And where it really gets fucked up is that several adults in this family knew (the rapists mother knew what her son had/has been doing)
When we away, a baby had to be removed (at birth) from the mother who was 13 who also needs to be removed from her parents because she was raped by her best friends dad and its the second time she's been raped. Dad is on trial and it seems it was only the daughters friend and not the daughter (although not the only case).
And where it really gets fucked up is that several adults in this family knew (the rapists mother knew what her son had/has been doing)
By Kidjr Go To PostWhile we on this tone, I really dont know how my wife does her job.I've talked about it before but I have no idea how my mom handled being a burn nurse for over 20 years. Treating people who wish they were dead due to the never-ending, searing pain. I imagine some patients died on her. She only talked to me about this stuff on two occasions. Those two instances were enough to make me know for sure that I was not cut out for traumatic care.
When we away, a baby had to be removed (at birth) from the mother who was 13 who also needs to be removed from her parents because she was raped by her best friends dad and its the second time she's been raped. Dad is on trial and it seems it was only the daughters friend and not the daughter (although not the only case).
And where it really gets fucked up is that several adults in this family knew (the rapists mother knew what her son had/has been doing)
By Kibner Go To PostI've talked about it before but I have no idea how my mom handled being a burn nurse for over 20 years. Treating people who wish they were dead due to the never-ending, searing pain. I imagine some patients died on her. She only talked to me about this stuff on two occasions. Those two instances were enough to make me know for sure that I was not cut out for traumatic care.
My friend’s wife works in the trauma wing of a children’s hospital.
I can’t imagine the shit she’s seen
By Apollo Go To PostMy friend’s wife works in the trauma wing of a children’s hospital.It's awful and something I try not to think about. :(
I can’t imagine the shit she’s seen
My wife's friend (as opposed to my friend's wife) also worked in the children's trauma wing in the hospital.
The number of rape kids that get put to use would make you want to bring back public execution.
The number of rape kids that get put to use would make you want to bring back public execution.
PR you don't know when to just stop do you? We don't need to be reminded about what happens to children
By Apollo Go To PostPR you don't know when to just stop do you? We don't need to be reminded about what happens to childrenSettle breh.
And yes, society in lots of areas around the world are still terrible at dealing with this stuff in all ways.
Hell yeah! Scored an upgrade to Finale 25 for just $100! I bought Print Music 2014 for about the same price years ago and since it won't work on the new Mac OS, the company is offering a discounted upgrade to the full version which is. From $400 down to $100. Happy!
By Kibner Go To Postsince it won't work on the new Mac OS
Man, I hate that shit. I'm like two versions behind because the current one fucks up Logic 9 and my audio interface doesn't work without a clunky driver. It had me looking up what's hot with Linux distros.
By livefromkyoto Go To PostMan, I hate that shit. I'm like two versions behind because the current one fucks up Logic 9 and my audio interface doesn't work without a clunky driver. It had me looking up what's hot with Linux distros.And this is when MS's dedication to backwards compatibility comes in handy. lol Also, the upgrade discount still worked for me despite not using an Apple OS.
But, yeah, I feel your pain.
I did run into a problem with the Finale software and it is only with my recent experience to all this different audio driver non-sense that I was finally able to figure out why Finale always took exclusive audio control over my system when launched and how to disable that (switch from ASIO driver to DirectSound [WASAPI driver crashed it =/ ]).
So, yay! I can now listen to other stuff while arranging music for my group.
Moving out of home for the first time, damn its been awful so far. Hopefully its good after i actually move in.
By diehard Go To PostMoving out of home for the first time, damn its been awful so far. Hopefully its good after i actually move in.how old is you
Why is it so hard to find an affordable apartment in Seattle? I'm trying to move there but fuck these rent prices. I'm pay less than $1 per square feet in my 678 sq feet apartment now and Seattle landlords out there raping pockets left and right.
Any Seattleans on here? How's life out there for single people? Are they on that stop and frisk?
Any Seattleans on here? How's life out there for single people? Are they on that stop and frisk?
By Professor Beef Go To Posthow old is youold af
By DY_nasty Go To PostI can show you straw huts with no power for a low low price of foh a month
Is there anything about 200 sq feet at $700 a month? Only thing is weed is legal so technically someone couldn't be arrested for ensuring medical marijuana patients receive their medicine.
Landlord hit me talking about but, but, but, look at all these amenities as this apartment is the size of one of your closets.
By Fenderputty Go To PostWhy is moving out not going well for you?Lots of stuff seeming to go wrong. They put me up in the wrong apartment floor plan (its smaller) and i stupidly didn't even notice until the day after and it would be a huge pain to try to change now. I got new furniture on the way but now im second guessing everything. Mostly its just my anxiety about everything though.
well i did a new exercise with my trainer today at the gym which was upper back and legs. upon doing htis new exercise my dizzy thing flared up again which had been a lot more subdued in recent months
so i guess the good thing is now i know exactly what's causing it which is what my therapist said. my upper back/neck area.
so i guess the good thing is now i know exactly what's causing it which is what my therapist said. my upper back/neck area.
By Furyous Go To PostIs there anything about 200 sq feet at $700 a month? Only thing is weed is legal so technically someone couldn't be arrested for ensuring medical marijuana patients receive their medicine.pay out the nose just to smoke legally, brehs
Landlord hit me talking about but, but, but, look at all these amenities as this apartment is the size of one of your closets.
By diehard Go To PostMostly its just my anxiety about everything though.
If you were living with your family as an adult, there is no way independence is going to net you more anxiety.
By livefromkyoto Go To PostIf you were living with your family as an adult, there is no way independence is going to net you more anxiety.
Try moving back in after living away from them for years
:/
By Apollo Go To PostTry moving back in after living away from them for years
:/
I just did that. I sublet my place when I moved to Japan, and it wasn't available right away when I came back. My family was really cool, but the lingering sense of adult child had me counting down the days to when I could be in charge of my own space again. (Marriage is gonna suck, isn't it. )
I'll be real, I stay with my parents every time I visit Portland the days I'm in the house I have PTSD. I lived with them through college and even my first year into my career.
By livefromkyoto Go To PostIf you were living with your family as an adult, there is no way independence is going to net you more anxiety.I just lived with my dad in like a 1,800 sq/ft basement and didnt pay rent. I had it easy, just moved out because im old and its time.
I don't feel any different yet since moving out
Only been like 11 days though, imagine it'll hit me like a tonne of bricks when the bills start coming in lol
Only been like 11 days though, imagine it'll hit me like a tonne of bricks when the bills start coming in lol
By diehard Go To PostI just lived with my dad in like a 1,800 sq/ft basement and didnt pay rent. I had it easy, just moved out because im old and its time.TBH, you made a "logical" decision to stay with him for as long as you have, probably saved a ton of money, the familiarity was nice, etc. However, there's something about learning to live on your own and figuring out what it means to have your place that can't be taught, only learned.
Paying bills > living under someone else and not having autonomy in your own space. That first day of sitting around in your underwear eating straight garbage and monopolizing the living room TV all day = heaven.
And having your own fort to bring women back to is a game changer.
And having your own fort to bring women back to is a game changer.
By reilo Go To PostTBH, you made a "logical" decision to stay with him for as long as you have, probably saved a ton of money, the familiarity was nice, etc. However, there's something about learning to live on your own and figuring out what it means to have your place that can't be taught, only learned.This is what im hoping.
DY you ever think back to basic and just laugh at the shit that happened to you, your platoon, or someone you knew? I was talking about early 2000's bands and was reminded of the funniest shit.
I was dating a girl that was super into Incubus. She decided to break up with me during my fourth week in BT. She sent me a letter explaining why and she used Incubus lyrics.
The drill saw the letter. So he made me stand on a chair in the killzone and sing the entire letter to everyone in the bay. Then he made me buff the killzone by hand because the chair left scuff marks
I was dating a girl that was super into Incubus. She decided to break up with me during my fourth week in BT. She sent me a letter explaining why and she used Incubus lyrics.
The drill saw the letter. So he made me stand on a chair in the killzone and sing the entire letter to everyone in the bay. Then he made me buff the killzone by hand because the chair left scuff marks
By Apollo Go To PostDY you ever think back to basic and just laugh at the shit that happened to you, your platoon, or someone you knew? I was talking about early 2000's bands and was reminded of the funniest shit.You killing me man 😂
I was dating a girl that was super into Incubus. She decided to break up with me during my fourth week in BT. She sent me a letter explaining why and she used Incubus lyrics.
The drill saw the letter. So he made me stand on a chair in the killzone and sing the entire letter to everyone in the bay. Then he made me buff the killzone by hand because the chair left scuff marks
But I was trying to marry a girl I met in AIT so I can't talk. I turned down ridiculous ass while I was with her too.
Worst thing about my basic was the fact all the guys in my bay (we had a small, 8 man room) were the biggest characters in the platoon. There was 5'1 MMA fighter, a 9/11 firefighter, this soft gangster with a heart of gold, the prettiest mulatto man of all time, this redneck guy that symbolizes all of the good ones, a dumbass who put everything in a journal he kept leaving out for drills to read, and myself.
I beat a kids ass once because he got up after eating too soon. You know, because when you get up - EVERYONE else has to start filing out too. I damn near choked him out in the dfac because ft. leonardwood biscuits and gravy were the only joy I'd been looking forward to that week. No one knew I could get mad until then lol. It was one of those fights where even the drill sergeant was like "chill breh it's not that serious"
By livefromkyoto Go To PostIf you were living with your family as an adult, there is no way independence is going to net you more anxiety.
Anxiety here seems normal. Don't let it get to you. Maybe do something you knew wouldn't fly at your old pad.
By Apollo Go To PostTry moving back in after living away from them for years
:/
Done this twice. Once to save for a down payment for my first house, once to remodel before moving into my second home. First was a little over a year and the second was about 6 months. Both were challenges, but I would lie if I said it wasn't a little neat having a meal on the table as my wife and I walked through the door.
By DY_nasty Go To PostYou killing me man 😂
But I was trying to marry a girl I met in AIT so I can't talk. I turned down ridiculous ass while I was with her too.
Worst thing about my basic was the fact all the guys in my bay (we had a small, 8 man room) were the biggest characters in the platoon. There was 5'1 MMA fighter, a 9/11 firefighter, this soft gangster with a heart of gold, the prettiest mulatto man of all time, this redneck guy that symbolizes all of the good ones, a dumbass who put everything in a journal he kept leaving out for drills to read, and myself.
I beat a kids ass once because he got up after eating too soon. You know, because when you get up - EVERYONE else has to start filing out too. I damn near choked him out in the dfac because ft. leonardwood biscuits and gravy were the only joy I'd been looking forward to that week. No one knew I could get mad until then lol. It was one of those fights where even the drill sergeant was like "chill breh it's not that serious"
Dude my drill was weird as fuck. You know when you have to dump all your shit out and they take away shit you can't have? Well my dad told me they would take everything but books and paper away. So I packed books and paper. The SSG saw that I didn't have anything to take away. He picked up my bag and everything with it and threw it out of the second floor window. Gave me two minutes to get back up with the bag packed and nothing on the floor. I got back up at one min and fifty-five seconds. He already had my books and paper in his office. This shit went on for 9 weeks. He picked on me like crazy.
Worst experience I had was after the big forest fire in Arizona. After pissing that bitch out, we still had an FTX to go to.
Anyways, my team is all women minus me and a cool Mexican breh. We're having a great time. After we finish work, it literally turned into a massage tent. Second week shit went downhill fast. ALL the girls synced up. It was 105+ degrees every day too. It got nasty.... like ugly nasty. They all came to me and said "DY, we need you to go ask"
So I grabbed all my gear and went to the TOC where all the SFCs, CW4s, and LTCs were and like jackasses they invited me inside to talk about how great shit was going for my team. We were the only group looking good after all. Then they tried to kick me out, I had to pump brakes on em all.
"Sir, my soldiers need supplies"
"You have all your gear, right?"
"We need tampons, pants, and alcohol"
You talking about an awkward silence boiiiiiiii it got hot in there real quick.
Anyways, my team is all women minus me and a cool Mexican breh. We're having a great time. After we finish work, it literally turned into a massage tent. Second week shit went downhill fast. ALL the girls synced up. It was 105+ degrees every day too. It got nasty.... like ugly nasty. They all came to me and said "DY, we need you to go ask"
So I grabbed all my gear and went to the TOC where all the SFCs, CW4s, and LTCs were and like jackasses they invited me inside to talk about how great shit was going for my team. We were the only group looking good after all. Then they tried to kick me out, I had to pump brakes on em all.
"Sir, my soldiers need supplies"
"You have all your gear, right?"
"We need tampons, pants, and alcohol"
You talking about an awkward silence boiiiiiiii it got hot in there real quick.
By Furyous Go To PostWhy is it so hard to find an affordable apartment in Seattle? I'm trying to move there but fuck these rent prices. I'm pay less than $1 per square feet in my 678 sq feet apartment now and Seattle landlords out there raping pockets left and right.Seattle? you fucked. Move to a 253 area code
Any Seattleans on here? How's life out there for single people? Are they on that stop and frisk?
By Apollo Go To PostMy son broke his armWas he at least attempting to do something heroic?
Like I'm about to have an email argument my last week here 😂 I'm about to throw myself a pizza party tomorrow they don't even know
By DY_nasty Go To PostLike I'm about to have an email argument my last week here 😂 I'm about to throw myself a pizza party tomorrow they don't even knowXD